Ramble

I know, I know. But, things have been super busy lately. I know it's not an excuse, or a lame one at least. If it makes you feel any better, I have finished my script. Yay, go me. Work has been sorta busy, and at home I've been trying to get things together with all the new additions.

Eh, that's besides the point. I'm back, and writing and whatnot.
Man, AS, that is my new phrase because of you.

I am in a good place right now. I'm scared to say so, though. (dammit.)
I'm feeling good. Things have balanced out and seem to be doing okay. My family health issue is stable. I miss him, man do I miss him, but I know that this is the best thing. I still talk to him all the time, making sure to stay just as connected as we were when he was here. Career seems to be actually going. Little by little, but I have the road ahead of me know, and I'm on it. I'm doing things that I've wanted to do, and know that other things are just around the corner. I'm feeling better about myself. I started kickboxing, and there is such confidence and power that comes from hitting a 300 lb or so bag.

Balanced. Maybe that's how I should approach it. I know that the tables can turn any moment now, that while good, they aren't necessarily stable. It's happened in the past. I've talked about it before. I've declared my war on life, taking back what's mine, then getting pelleted from life. I've learned my lesson. What I need to do is take things one day at a time. Do what I want to do, what I feel I need to do, one item at a time. As they say, life is what happens when you make other plans.

I don't want to sound like I've had some big revelation or anything, but the roller coaster I've been on lately has made me realize that you can never be sure things will stay constant. I don't necessarily have my guard up, but I'm protecting myself. That's all I can do, really.

As they also say, take the bad with the good. Realize that bad stuff is going to happen, but you have to let it go and let in the positive. I think this is a good way to start my summer. My crazy exciting summer.